Adrenaline

I was just thinking about some idiots I know, I generally call them my friends, but I was trying to figure out why we get thrills from different things.

These people I kindly refer to as friends seem to like doing what they know is wrong in an attempt to get a rush. I don't really know what to classify a rush as, but it a fun and self produce chemical dump into the body that seems to affect the senses and thinking pattern. Because it creates a rapid change in emotion and thought it affects the whole body's system and seems to make it go into hyper drive. Thus the term rush.

Lots of things create this rush. Some that are self destructive include pornography, swearing, bullying, fighting, and doing things that you know will bring negative attention (this one the rush comes from an attempt to avoid the negative attention, such as the cops). Other things less destructive and likely encouraged by the Lord as a means of fun or recreation include working out, pushing yourself mentally and physically, learning a new/challenging skill talent. And then there are the things that just scare you to create an adrenaline burst.

Coincidentally the self-destructive activities are an easier way to get this sought after rush. But one of the over-looked catches is that the rush is not satisfying in the sense that the user leaves more unhappy than when he came to the activity.

But those things that better us, exercise and the like that I listed before. Those really leave us satisfied and better individuals. These are the things I go to for my rush. I love to work out and almost enjoy being sore. Pushing my mental limits in puzzles and school even seems to afford me this privileged chemical dump (that probably is why I am a geek and a nerd). Then there are the things I just love (like thunderbirds SCREAMING over head) and they are unique to me. But either way, I find things that don't bring me down.

So when I think about war and the hard rock music that puts me into that mentality, I start to wonder which category of thrill I am getting. Is it the self-destructive mentality. I know the music when just used for enjoyment is destructive, but when it is used in preparation, is it acceptable? I want to say yes, but I can't be sure. Because war, as taught by the Lord, is not meant to be a thing of glory and enjoyment. War should be one of the top reasons for me to sorrow. But when I think of serving in the greatest physical and mental capacity possible to me. So great that it comes to either I lose my life or that person who desires to rip away my freedom and the things I believe in must lose theirs. I get that thrill, that thrill that I must prepare and be ready or I will be beaten. And I do no favors to my country or family by dying. So I must not lose.

Maybe that is my answer. It is ok because I am preparing for my family and beliefs.